Chasing The Dragon

I think I'm paranoid...

2011-03-22T06:01:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I'm angry with everybody for no particular reason. And then other days, I wake up and I decide "Okay, I forgive everybody." Probably because I really don't wanna die old hating a bunch of people.

And then there's us. You're the only thing keeping me sane. Thank you.

Though the spark from when we first met is long gone and it feels like everything else (work, studies) is trying to douse out the flame... I can't let that happen. I won't.

I know I just wrote a long post about optimism...

2011-01-07T01:59:00.001+08:00

... but fuck all of ya'll, NS,

Optimism, it's underrated.

2011-01-02T21:57:00.000+08:00

Going into the year 2010, I was a complete mess. I was incredibly angry and bitter...and while I played up the whole angry young man character for laughs, it was terribly unlike me. My short term memory loss failed to show up and I was pretty downtrodden for most of the first part of the year.

But at some point, (I believe March) things just started picking up... Life went on and everything took a turn for the better. (Phew)

So, to everyone who had a rough 2010...bid it farewell for these trials and tribulations only make you stronger. At some point, you're gonna zoom past your burdens, and it'll be off your mind just enough for you to focus on something else. By the time you remember, life's already become totally rad and awesome. At least that was the case for myself...

And to Nat, thanks for a lovely 2010.

2010, Fare thee well!
Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!

Who says?

2010-12-29T23:21:00.001+08:00

We Can Work It Out

2010-11-22T19:38:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry.

Dayyyyyyy Tripper

2010-11-07T03:23:00.002+08:00

Well, it's been a fun week, eh?

God only knows what I'd be without you.

2010-11-04T02:08:00.001+08:00

December.

2010-10-27T22:04:00.000+08:00

Can I just say how excited I am for December? I don't actually give a shit about my own birthday, but its the 21st and that's as good as any reason to take a week's leave and party the shit out of my life for 7 days straight. And of course, spend some quality time with the girlfriend. Teeheehee.

Oh oh oh, and finally a meaningful Christmas. Yay!

This is how I feel waking up next to you.

2010-10-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

Friday I'm In Love.

2010-10-19T06:20:00.000+08:00

Monday you can fall apart, tuesday, wednesday break my heart, oh thursday doesn't even start... it's friday, I'm in love.

Be back soon.

The world is treating me bad... I'm in misery.

2010-10-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

Okay, this one's not about the girlfriend. Phone got lost. Bleah.

Dear Prudence

2010-10-18T07:20:00.000+08:00

The sun is up, the sky is blue, it's beautiful and so are you.

I woke up, I saw your texts and I cried. But I still have no clue what's going on.

Sometimes I just wish I could be numb... sigh.

Dear Hormones.

2010-10-18T01:54:00.000+08:00

You sieve in and out of her as and when you want, rendering my judgement useless and my efforts utterly futile. You turn her into the most boring person alive, stripping her of usual wit and humour. The usual jokes fail to churn any laughs, the sweetest songs get ignored. There is literally nothing else I can possibly do within my very humanly abilities except to find some test subjects and solve PMS. But if I was gonna do that, I would just go cure cancer instead because frankly, cancer kills people and that's way more serious and yeah, nothing else.

Seeing that my own girlfriend wondered out loud how I would last if she went on a holiday without me... I should probably challenge myself. Yeah. From now on, 1:22:20AM, I will not text my girlfriend, unless texted, and will not text her on my own initiative until she says she is no longer hormonal and her mind of warping emotional demons have stop becoming a mess of shape shifting substances. I will not call her no matter how worried or concerned I am. I will not be tempted to talk to her, no matter how much a certain object/action/thought remains myself of her.

So yeah, fuck it. I'm going on my own sabbatical. Hell. Fuck 23rd October. Why bother fucking planning right? It'll be a game time decision. You'll just act up at the right moment anyway. Throw a month's worth of planning down the piss drain. You must really be good friends with this "Murphy" guy because you know what, you guys fuck everything up at the right moments. Who the hell knows? Because, frankly I'm sick and tired of smsing, trying to find out what's wrong. And then getting nothing. And everyone knows I hate being ignored. I don't even know what I've done. I don't honestly know what the fuck is going on. As far as I know, I haven't done anything wrong. And I don't just message people for the fuck of it. I message people because I care. Because I give a shit. Because I NEED to know something. But apparently, my over eagerness (not just in terms of sexual advances, gee, wow amazing I'm eager for something other than pussy, I know) and unwillingness to stand pat is fucking everything up. I have no quit and I'll keep trying. But it's fine time I realize this is one battle I'll never win. Fine. I'll stand pat. I'll wait. After all, I'm powerless and there's nothing I can do.

Just know that, you're not the only one who cries. I just teared up because as of right now, I am the most useless man in the universe. And now, I take this vacation, unwillingly. Because this person is not the one I fell in love with. And she is driving me away. And once again, there is nothing I can do. Try as I might, I'm not Clark Kent. Hell, I'm not even sure Supes himself can fight the power of the ovulation cycle. Shit is more puzzling than kryptonite mixed with vitagen.

So fuck you, hormones. Give me back my baby in a week, alright?

Your frustratingly,
Dex

Goodbye.

Why do you build me up...

2010-10-17T16:39:00.000+08:00

Build me up buttercup with footage from the very awesome "There's Something About Mary"...

Everyone I know, goes away... in the end.

2010-10-17T05:12:00.001+08:00

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

No, I am not emo, I just really like this song... and I was kinda emo. Not now. Truth is, I can't stay angry at you. Even when annoyed, I still find myself wanting you. Yeah. It's kinda annoying.

This is the 400th post.

2010-10-16T16:32:00.004+08:00

Nothing special here for the 400th post. Fuck it. I guess I'm just not never going to be enough.

Today was proof trying your hardest might not necessarily matter. Sometimes, you just can't be Superman. Because you're human and you don't have a dog named Krypto and have a Kryptonian pee wee that shoots ice breath semen.

Fuck.

Learn to pick your god damn fights, Dex. You can't win em' all. As much as you would like to think you can make anything and everything okay for her, you can't. You can't. It's mother nature. So, fuck you hormones for ruining my weekend. Fuck you.

About a girl.

2010-10-13T03:58:00.000+08:00

This is a story of boy meets girl. Girl doesn't remember boy but said boy does. Said boy meets said girl four years later and yet somehow something's different this time around.

As many of you might have known by now, I have a girlfriend now! Yep, one that lasts longer than the average lifespan of two weeks when it comes to relationships involving me. So how I met her, Natasha is kind of funny. You see we actually met way back in 2006 at a bar gig which our mutual friend was performing at. She even offered her vodka sprite which she doesn't remember at all. I refused like immediately, panic attack. Doh. Apparently all it took was a haircut and douchebaggy faux leather jackets to make an impression this past April. And slightly drunk repeated declarations of "CASH MONEY YA'LL".

We re-met there and then. I sat on making a move for at least a full week before I added her on facebook. And then I probably went another week or two before I actually made any attempt to talk to her. Of course, smooth me had to use penial fracture to start our very first conversation. Eventually our friends caught that something was amiss, and if you know me at all you'll know I suck at keeping a secret. So I let the cat outta the bag and exposed myself to a whole lot of teasing and they started trying to create opportunities for us which Nat probably still feels set up over. LOL.

Eventually I managed to ask her out on a date. Except she didn't know it was a date... until the next date which I paid for everything that she realised I was interested.

We started going out, but NS and and work tends to make meeting up a problem. Also a 2 week trip to Hong Kong for her didn't help much. It just felt like a back and forth swing between playing coy and being truthful before we finally got together. Haha. It took a few freak outs on my part before we finally got together and we've been happy together ever since.

We're such opposites of each other that it sometimes boggles my mind how we even ended up together. I'm just surprised at times that she puts up with my childishness and all the stupid things that I do. She's pretty, driven and just one of the most generous souls I've ever met. It's just downright amazing and maybe even ludicrous that she would fall for a weirdo like me.

Natasha, I'm sorry for all the times I've hurt you but you know I never meant to. It's all weird for me to have always been pretty detached and lonesome all my life to now have someone mean so much to me now. September 2010 will always be a happy memory for me! Here's to a month (almost two) plus of happiness and to many more. I'll probably never get tired of good night messages so here's the ending song.

Sleep pretty darling, do not cry. And I will sing a lullaby.
<3

Out On The Tiles

2010-10-11T04:27:00.000+08:00

Headphones! I've missed you! The raw crisp power of sound fills my ears again. Time to celebrate with rediscovering a Led Zeppelin album cut in the middle of the night. One of their heaviest songs, no less. And a fitting song for recent times, no less.

As I walk down the highway all I do is sing this song,
And a train that's passin' my way helps the rhythm move along.
There is no doubt about the words are clear,
The voice is strong, is oh so strong.

I'm just a simple guy, I live from day to day.
A ray of sunshine melts my frown and blows my blues away,
There's nothing more that I can say but on a day like today
I pass the time away and walk a quiet mile with you.

*All I need from you is all your love,
All you got to give to me is all your love,
All I need from you is all your love,
All you got to give to me is all your love.
Oooh yeah, ooh yeah, ooh yeah, oh yeah.

I'm so glad I'm living and gonna tell the world I am,
I got me a fine woman and she says that I'm her man,
One thing that I know for sure gonna give her all the loving
Like nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody can.

Standing in the noonday sun trying to flag a ride,
People go and people come, see my rider right by my side,
It's a total disgrace, they set the pace, it must be a race
And the best thing I can do is run.

With Love, From Me To You

2010-09-29T20:46:00.001+08:00

Great Day

2010-09-21T23:58:00.001+08:00

I woke up angry yesterday.
When the day got on, I got work.
I managed to make my girl's shitty day better...and when I got home, I get news that me and Drew are gonna get interviewed. Pretty amazing, huh?

Epiphany

2010-09-20T15:25:00.000+08:00

Today I woke up angry, as usual I guess... nothing new. It happens from time to time.

But today I realized something was different.
I'm just angry with myself.

Not my job.
Not my girlfriend.
Not my parents.
Not my friends.
Just me.
Hmmm.

Carry on, carry on

2010-09-16T02:18:00.003+08:00

If I'm not back again this time tomorrow, carry on carry on.
As if nothing really matters.

I worry too much.

Twist Of Fate

2010-08-30T02:10:00.000+08:00

All of a sudden, we're together.

Yay!

Fakin' It

2010-08-29T08:32:00.001+08:00

We're finally setting off and the prospect of sleep is slightly exciting. Your notions of how special I am make me happy but at the same time it could be a curse. I'm coming into contact with people now and I'm faking everything. My eyes are bloodshot, I'm dizzy and every breath I take is a heave or sigh. I don't want to sit down because my head will be hung low. Yet, I smile. I crack a joke or two. I don't want people to know.

Because I feel horrid.

7.45AM

2010-08-29T08:00:00.000+08:00

I am in camp. I can't stop reading your blog post over and over again
as if memorising it would make me get your complicated brain better.

Stop it Mr. Insecurity. Leave my body, now... please?

Fool.

2010-08-29T03:41:00.003+08:00

I'm a fool. I have no explanation for what I did earlier tonight other than I was drunk. I can't believe I did that. Still, a lot of it holds true. I'm still that same insecure idiot.

I know why you don't wanna talk to me right now. I don't make much sense. I'm about as far away from whatever dreamboat vision you have of me right now. And I understand. I can't stand being me sometimes. I'm disgusting. That's just me. Sometimes at the very least.

And tonight... whatever I was, I definitely wasn't the nicest guy ever. And everyone else is right. The only thing that's screwed is that I don't feel wanted. And that's a grey area where it could be your fault. It could be mine.

The fact that your birthdays are so close. That's not your fault.
The memories from this period last year. That's definitely not your fault.
My idea of love and trust... it's definitely different from yours. Hell, it doesn't even take much to earn it. And yet, I thought everyone was like me. That's my fault.

I'm not the brightest bulb in the room at any given occasion. And I'm rash and dumb and I pull shit like that. And if, I'm gonna break down like this every time I get the slightest hint of doubt then yes, this definitely wouldn't be healthy for us at all. But when you blow hot and cold on me all the time... that has just as much of an effect on me as me talking leaving you on to you. When you talk of the things you wouldn't do with me, I just feel like a lesser person. I wanna do what couples do. Why? Why do I get some watered down hug? Those thoughts go through my head. I can't help it. And no, you weren't cold to me today. It probably has nothing to do with today at all. I'm just having my eye on the future and it kinda scares me. Maybe it'll get better with time like you said. But my patience is running out. And it's coinciding with a change with us. Our talks get shorter. The company we spend with each other gets less. The spontaneity is disappearing from me and yes, there is a direct link with all that to my patience. It's hard to be happy when what made us happy in the first place... it's all changing. I know change happens. But I'm so adverse to it when it comes to relationship stuff. I blame myself. I don't want anything to change. And I don't know what I have when it comes to you so it makes it worse. When people face a challenge, they grasp and hold tightly to whatever they treasure. But I just don't know what I have with you. I don't. I wish I could have guarantees when it comes to commitments. But it's just impossible. I'm wavering on my own... and it's hard.

And maybe you'll see where I'm coming from. I don't really think I deserve to act like a needy child at all but I still do it.. I've got my baggage and you've got yours. And sometimes when I'm down and all negative, it seems all too much to overcome when put together. But even foolish ol' me knows a relationship is built on the happy moments. We're in a rough patch right now, and yes, I made every single argument in this two weeks happen. So it's obviously my fault. I'll have to right that. We're stalling and it sucks. It sucks so much.

But no. I'm not giving up on us. We wanna get serious, this is what serious gets us into, I guess. And I guess for the first time, I'll have to meet the problem head on instead of running every single time I run into one. That's what I've always done. I was immature then. I am immature. I'm trying to be mature.

So. It's okay you don't love me. Really. It's fine. Because you will grow to love me. All that crap I said about sticking around for the long haul? That wasn't lip service. It never was. I don't do that. And I'm not going to renege on it now. I'll hold on with whatever I've got and we'll make it out of our personal slice of hell. But tonight? I'll dwell. I'll sleep on a bed of nails.

For That Special Someone

2010-08-23T13:46:00.002+08:00

Just so because I know someone's written a post about me and not published it yet (teeheehee) and to clear all the doom and gloom because it's not like that. At all. It's just been a very unusual week as a whole for me. And yeah if you're reading this, you know I'm sorry, even though you're probably chiding me for bringing it up again. Haha. And yes, I'm writing on purpose so you can't say I blog only to vent out emotions. LOL.

It's been a roller coaster of emotions this past week. But yet somehow again, we're better off. I've never been the most secure guy in the world. I've always strove to improve myself for no real reason than because I thought I sucked and kinda felt I was always lacking something. To me, I'm just a boy starting to take on and fill out the awkward shoes of a man and the responsibilities that come with it. I don't think I'll ever be ready for it but there's just a few months left. I can't help but be afraid of the future, the jobs, the droning wave of mundane that I might be about to face.

And then there's you. I have hopes and dreams of a long beautiful time with you. I'm doing whatever I can to keep this goofy foolish playfulness we share and have going for as long as I can, even as realities are stacking up for me right now. But I don't know what exactly happened, it could be the talks we've had and your words resonating within me. It could be that song. All I know... is I woke up today feeling empowered and ready to take on the world. You're trying to be better at certain things... I'm going to be better. No. Make that the best I can be. I promise. Yeah. I think we'll be fine. And so, thank you.

Sleeping Woes

2010-08-21T13:46:00.000+08:00

Hi there, right now I can't sleep while on duty. Not sure it's bunk mate's snoring but I woke up to take a pee wee and I haven't snoozed since. But I'm sure it'll bite me in the ass later, regardless.

Anyone who's known me quite well knows of my sleep issues. I seriously can't go to bed without exhausting every inch of me that day. That's the physical part, and then there's the mental stuff. And recently, now that I've been dating (hehe!) again, I've just realized how paranoid I really am. Like what Inception says, an idea is the worst kind of virus. It grows and grows the minute some small idea is planted in me. Especially doubt. And I'll just keep thinking about it. No distraction works. I've ran 5km thinking non stop instead of focusing before. It's super crazy. Take something stupid like her forgetting to reply me a message. I'll think I'm getting ignored and I won't be able to sleep the whole night because of that thought. Recently, we both got mildly pissed at each other and while not talking, my insane brain went on this marathon run of paranoia and when she woke up, she got a parcel of WTF jumbled thoughts and emotions. Poor thing. I did make up for it though, just because I'm a fucking sweetheart. When we go out on dates, I get so fucking elated I can't sleep later. So, it's a double edged sword. Happy or sad, she makes me unable to sleep. Hmph. Kinda stupid, I know. Right now, I'm not sure if she's safe and sound and I've been waking up routinely between sleep, hoping for a sign she's safe. Yeah, you probably have this image of me being a total fucking mental wreck now but no, I'm fine. But I just can't doze off.

I have issues. Right? Right. Not sure who even reads this anymore but if you do, gimme a heads up. I'll do my awesome impersonation of Bruce Springsteen singing "We Are The World". Just for you.

Parallel

2010-08-17T16:19:00.001+08:00

I'm starting to see a parallel between me and JD from scrubs.
Please don't let this be true but it seems every damn time I meet a girl, I'll let some small thing annoy me to no end and then I'll do something to get dumped.

This is not happening. No. No. No. NO.

May be.

2010-08-08T03:59:00.001+08:00

May be I'm not thinking right.
May be this is just some state of panic I'm in.
May be I do read too much into things.

May be.
May be?

Waiting.

2010-06-27T06:15:00.002+08:00

Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could

Now we see everything that's going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's hard to beat the system
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change

Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want

That's why we're waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's not that we don't care,
We just know that the fight ain't fair
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

And we're still waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

Now I'm A Believer!

2010-05-25T01:25:00.001+08:00

I thought love was only true in fairy tales
Meant for someone else but not for me.
Love was out to get me
That's the way it seemed.
Disappointment haunted all my dreams.

Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love, I'm a believer!
I couldn't leave her if I tried.

I thought love was more or less a givin' thing,
Seems the more I gave the less I got.
What's the use in tryin'?
All you get is pain.
When I needed sunshine I got rain.

Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind.
I'm in love, I'm a believer!
I couldn't leave her if I tried.

Seismic shifts in personality

2010-05-02T19:46:00.000+08:00

At times, I really don't seem to know the real me. You know, when you're supposed to be something but yet you just feel uneasy as hell and can't seem to settle into any kind of groove. For the longest time, I couldn't even know what I really liked or wanted. People always seemed to peg me as an extrovert, although I would make the case I really like to spend a lot of time alone, just doing shit I enjoy. Until recently, with the help of zodiac readings (yes I'm corny like that), I've kinda accepted the fact I probably am more of an extrovert than the other.

But you know there's a certain period in which you're bound to freeze up at. It's when you're in the presence of that special someone. No, I'm not talking about some honey bunny whose pants you really wanna get into. Nor am I talking about some revolutionary inner feeling that will guarantee you that the woman you look at that night end up with you for the rest of your life. That isn't important. Whether that person who gives you the tingles that night ends up being special or not, that's not the point. The point is, you lose your self-control. Your entire vibe that people like, it starts to slowly slip away. You start being self-concious. You go into a daze, she says something, you don't hear it, you go "Wha..?", you get embarrassed. Get the idea?

I think I'm getting that kind of feeling back again. And it's not nice. Ok it's nice in a way. Not nice too if you mess it up like I'm prone to do so. Oh well.

REVO-EMAG

2010-03-07T12:13:00.000+08:00

Yes, it's been a while, I've been too busy getting dumped, and writing shit for my public entertainment blog Revo-Emag while not getting shitfaced or doing odd jobs in camp. Visit it and show your support, bitches.

I don't really have anything personal to say, as I'm sure no one actually reads this anymore and really I'm too busy putting on a false front. Sigh.

Best Quotes from last weekend

2009-12-12T19:52:00.000+08:00

"It's not sarcasm if I mean it" - Me in response to Nunu discussing my humour and often used sarcasm and how other people might not get it.

"This is extreme." Aza, all night long...

"Shit, my girlfriend and my ex is at the same table right now, this is awkward..." Gordon Legend

How true?

2009-11-22T12:49:00.002+08:00

The thing is, perfect love is also most of the time, inconvenient.

You got me there.

Things change, people change, I've probably changed.

2009-11-15T20:17:00.000+08:00

It's been almost a month since the shit storm went down and one more month 'till I pass out! And I've been thinking a lot. Probably too much. My mind wanders off way too often in camp.

I'm gonna turn 20 soon. My youth will officially be over soon. So, do I really want to join the rat race? You know, I'm not bragging or anything. But upon deep retrospection, I realized I've actually done a lot in the past three years in Poly. Like, I've actually made things happen for myself. Like how, you say?

Love life's not brilliant but I've gotten laid a few times so bless whoever gave me that luck. Managed to juggle a couple of attachments simultaneously while studying and even broke into another field in which I had no business being in.

That's not bad, right? Sure, I'm no top student, and I'm not academic genius you'll look to for solutions on stopping global warming. But looking back, I take pride in that whatever I've done was with all my heat and soul and passion. I did them because I wanted to. I can rest well knowing that while other people were stuck doing shit they hated, I was having a ball of a time.

Where does this all fit in and where am I getting to exactly? Well, getting out of that youthful rebel excuse phase probably means I have to grow up like everyone else and get a proper job once this military crap finishes, right? I guess so. I've certainly thought about. The rat race, it scares me. Questions like if I'll be able to earn enough to give back to my ma and pops, if I'll earn enough to move out and support myself, they just keep popping up. Can I possibly make a living shooting shit I like? With humour half the peninsula doesn't understand? Or will my website venture be able to sustain itself?

It all looks bleak. But I'll still probably do it anyway. I'm stupid like that. Stupid enough to drag myself into a mountain of debts. Stupid enough to lower my value to a girl who didn't appreciate anything. Stupid enough to not join this rat race.

Old habits die hard.

Best Moment of 09

2009-10-25T19:57:00.002+08:00

Creativity Surges

2009-10-18T19:59:00.000+08:00

This whole weekend, all I've been thinking about is this.

I wanna be somebody.

Hurt

2009-10-03T23:36:00.000+08:00

... goes away. I'll keep telling myself it's nothing. And maybe one day it'll go away. I hope so.

Or, I'll go berserk and kill someone. Which wouldn't be such a bad thing actually...

Yipeekiyay motherfucker.

2009-10-03T16:34:00.000+08:00

Yeah. You probably know what happened. Not the first time, then again I kinda provoked that reaction. I just like to tempt fate, you know? A subtle jab's not enough for me. You gotta knock it right into my face, right into my numbskull before I actually believe it.

It's amazing how things change in a week. Just a week ago, we were fawning over watching 500 Days Of Summer which opens next week. And next week, it's a bunch of fuck yous being exchanged over long diatribes of text messages. Well, that was mainly on my part still, you just didn't seem to give a damn about me anymore. Maybe I was lead on, maybe I thought too much, maybe. Maybe, it was just a bunch of maybes.

Anyways, I'm good. This isn't the first time anyways, *cough* 08 Valentine's *cough* so I'm handling it good. Nothing like tough physical training in camp to forget and get over you. Even when Funny People was about a dude coming in between a couple, which obviously was kinda sensitive, was I kinda affected. It's kind of funny in a way, I don't know. But I'm experiencing a creative surge right now. It always happens after something like this. Maybe I should be thankful for having a colourful life like this instead.

But it's sad how I don't hate you. I'm pissed at you, but fuck. I don't hate you. Fuck you.

163rd Squadron, Lim Chu Kang Camp II, I-HAWK

2009-09-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

Yes. I have been posted.

The Improved Homing All the Way Killer missile system will be the thing I'll be learning and operating.

Yep. Big.

Yes, it's one of those sleepless nights...

2009-09-28T03:35:00.002+08:00

... hence the barrage of posts.

In a few hours time, I will have found out my squadron/camp posting and what weapon I will be operating. Stay tuned.

This is why I wanna be like Travolta

2009-09-28T00:02:00.004+08:00

Hello Goodbye

2009-09-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

In approximately seven hours time, I will be reporting to Air Force School and bidding one part of my so far short military life goodbye and beginning a new chapter. I'm about to say hello to more push ups, more chin ups and various anti air weapons that I'll have to lug and deploy for the next 1 year 9 months.

What do I think of all this?

I honestly don't know. I'm indifferent. There's really nothing I can do about it anyway.

20 chin ups... possible? I'm only at 4 now, and it's such a pain in the ass. Say hello to 24 inch pythons in the near future I guess.

What can I dooooooo?

2009-09-16T03:55:00.001+08:00

I can't stand it for another day
When you live so many miles away
Nothing here is gonna make me stay
You took me over, let me find a way

I sold my house
I sold my motor, too
All I want is to be next to you.
I'd rob a bank
Maybe steal a plane
You took me over
Think I'm goin' insane

What can I do
All I want is to be next to you
What can I do
All I want is to be next to you

I've had a thousand girls or maybe more
But I've never felt like this before
But I just don't know what's come over me
You took me over, take a look at me

What can I do
All I want is to be next to you
What can I do
All I want is to be next to you

All I want is to be next to you
All I want is to be next to you
All I want is to be next to you

So many times I used to give a sign
Got this feeling, gonna lose my mind
When all it is is just a love affair
You took me over baby, take me there

What can I do
All I want is to be next to you
What can I do
All I want is to be next to you
What can I do
All I want is to be next to you
What can I do
All I want is to be next to you
All I want is to be next to you
All I want is to be next to you
All I want is to be next to you
All I want is to be next to you...

Top 5 Things To Do When Bored In NS

2009-09-10T21:33:00.000+08:00

1.) Scratch your nuts
Because there's nothing like knowing that they're still there when you're about go get fucked up by your commanders.

2.) Fart.
Fart as much as possible. It's best if it's not the silent but deadly type but even better if it's the machine gun burst without the smell type. You gotta love the PEW PEW PEW coming from your asshole. It's a relief.

3.) Touch your head.
Because there's also nothing like knowing everyone's gonna recognize your shitty job without even telling them. Also, it's nice and prickly. That's always a plus.

4.) Looking down from the bunk corridor
There's something about observing other platoons get fucked and then taking cover when spotted. It makes me warm inside.

5.) Changing lyrics of army songs...
Because that's just what guys do...

Short note before booking in.

2009-08-02T17:29:00.001+08:00

Field Camp = Pimples.

FML

2009-07-26T10:50:00.001+08:00

Make no doubt about it... this life is a fuckin prison.

Honesty...

2009-07-20T00:21:00.003+08:00

.. makes me sleep at night.

... (wait, I don't sleep much... wait wtf I just contradicted myself with my face... bah)... but that's not the point, I'll sleep well tonight.

I'm not good at lying. However, I've been keeping the truth and how I really really feel inside for weeks now since you left.

... You said that I was reading you like a book. Well... I just expressed how I was feeling as well. Sometimes, things can be so simple, huh?

Stay strong and rock up Melbourne. I'll join you in a bit. ;)

Heeeeeeey Julie

2009-07-16T22:47:00.001+08:00

Working all day for a mean little man
With a clip-on tie and a rub-on tan
He's got me running 'round the office like a dog around a track
But when I get home,
You're always there to rub my back

Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through without you around

Hours on the phone making pointless calls
I got a desk full of papers that means nothing at all
Sometimes I catch myself staring into space
Counting down the hours 'til I get to see your face

Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through with out you around
No, I'd never make it through with out you around

[Bridge]
How did it come to be
That you and I must be
Far away from each other every day?
Why must I spend my time
Filling up my mind
With facts and figures that never add up anyway?
They never add up anyway

Working all day for a mean little guy
With a bad toupee and a soup-stained tie
He's got me running 'round the office
Like a gerbil on a wheel
He can tell me what to do
But he can't tell me what to feel

Hey Julie,
Look what they're doing to me
Trying to trip me up
Trying to wear me down
Julie, I swear, it's so hard to bear it
And I'd never make it through with out you around
No, I'd never make it through without you around
No, I'd never make it through with out you around

Sometimes

2009-07-16T04:34:00.002+08:00

I wish I could hit pause on my life.

I wish I could use up, up, down, down, left, right, left, B, A and get 9 lives/continues.

I wish I could have a break.

This isn't the first time.

I fear failure.

I know I'm supposed to embrace it. But fuck that, alright?

I'm a nervous wreck.

And yes, I know I'm starting almost all my sentences with the word "I", you're not exactly at your linguistic best when you're stressed. Mmmmkay.

Ring Of Fire

2009-07-16T01:29:00.001+08:00

Love Is A Burning Thing
And It Makes A Fiery Ring
Bound By Wild Desire
I Fell Into A Ring Of Fire

CHORUS:
I Fell Into A Burning Ring Of Fire
I Went Down, Down, Down
And The Flames Went Higher

And It Burns, Burns, Burns
The Ring Of Fire
The Ring Of Fire

I Fell Into A Burning Ring Of Fire
I Went Down, Down, Down
And The Flames Went Higher

And It Burns, Burns, Burns
The Ring Of Fire
The Ring Of Fire

The Taste Of Love Is Sweet
When Hearts Like Ours Meet
I Fell For You Like A Child
Oh, But The Fire Went Wild

CHORUS
I Fell Into A Burning Ring Of Fire
I Went Down, Down, Down
And The Flames Went Higher

And It Burns, Burns, Burns
The Ring Of Fire
The Ring Of Fire

I Fell Into A Burning Ring Of Fire
I Went Down, Down, Down
And The Flames Went Higher

And It Burns, Burns, Burns
The Ring Of Fire
The Ring Of Fire

And It Burns, Burns, Burns

The Ring Of Fire

The Ring Of Fire

It's funny

2009-07-15T02:12:00.004+08:00

... how a song can differ so much to me just by the singer's interpretation. One's a sad almost lament while the other is a fond albeit regretful look back.

Me? I'm not too sure how I'll end up. Going by things, I usually assume the role of sad bastard Gregg Alexander.

Up up up

2009-07-12T00:30:00.002+08:00

That's how things are looking.

And I fully intend on making them fly all the way up there.

On other news, I really really need to seek treatment for my dark rings after NS.

Getting asked if I had enough sleep last night is getting old, very old.

Yawn.

I don't care if you're reading this

2009-07-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

I hurt myself today

To see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

The only thing that's real

- NIN/Johnny Cash - Hurt

Ouch.

Here I am, gorging myself with a potent toxic combination of Johnny Cash, Elvis Presley and various other cheesy power ballads. Not to mention, coke and chocolate chunk granola bars. Yes, at 12.45 AM. Yes, random, I know. I'm hungry. Today was one of those days when looking terrible coincided with me feeling absolutely horrible as well, and right now I feel like curling up into the fetal position and listening to some Jeff Buckley.

I showed up, embarrassed myself and just tensed the fuck up. I couldn't even react to your little punch to my shoulder. I'm thoroughly embarrassed, I feel like the kid who got his pants pull down in gym class. Wow.

And at the end of it all, yep it's bad timing like you said. Like what Elvis sings in Can't Help Falling In Love, only fools rush in. Yep, I'm a fool. A lovefool. (Fuck, I need to stop quoting songs. I can't stop doing that.) In the end, it's my fault. I opened myself up, trusted my heart and went with it for a change. Guess what, life isn't dictated by me. Whoopeefuckindo.

Anyways, it just seems like this is turning into a no win game, huh. Well fuck me sideways, book in at 2pm tomorrow. Yay, way to fuckin' go.

All I can say to everyone who helped out.

2009-06-09T00:51:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU.

谢谢。

Time to exaggerate: Things to do after NS

2009-06-06T01:29:00.002+08:00

1. Play Footsie for 2 hours straight with some hot chick

2. Get rid of my eyebags

3. Tour Europe

4. Tour the US

5. Smoke A LOT of mother nature

6. Get my hair back

7. Perform a shoryuken on someone (hopefully an ex girlfriend... and pretend to be drunk)

8. Turn down some asshole's plea for help because I've just realized I've helped many people and I hardly get helped... fuck em

9. Start a regular online show just for kicks

10. Try to stop wrecking my body, especially my back

Simple Post

2009-06-03T01:02:00.001+08:00

BROKE.

Film, amazing.

2009-05-17T22:37:00.003+08:00

How many times can I watch the same film and get new vibes every single time?

Just re-watched Jerry Maguire after a long long time. Think this is my 3rd time watching it. Last watched it I think 4 years ago. Damn.

And it's so amazing how it spoke to me. Right place, right time. Indeed. How much similarities it bore to the current script I'm doing. How much Jerry's love life was similar to mine.

Nothing's gonna stop me. Money and that girl, I'm coming.

I haven't had much luck with my career and certainly "Good at friendship, bad at intimacy" defines me to a certain extent. Fuck that. I'm going to change all that. And even if it stays the same.

At least I tried. Heh.

Mas Selmat arrested

2009-05-08T06:40:00.002+08:00

As usual, don't fuck with the SG gahmen.

Who would have thought this day would come...

But who cares. Had beer last night. Hohoho. Two pints of Heineken. Yes, I realize I'm terribly bad at holding my liquor but really, beer once in a while is awesome for unwinding. And I really needed to unwind after all those nights of staying up do rewrites in the night, then waking a few hours later to do MORE writing for the mag. God. I'm excited for the production but right now I need to live too. So yesterday was briiiiiiiliant. Down some beer, spew some trash and just get home.

AHHHH Work later.

Enlisting.

2009-04-24T15:41:00.000+08:00

11 June 2009. Mark the date down, ladies.

Justify

2009-04-24T00:43:00.001+08:00

I might be angsty, bitter and pretty much an asshole right now... but it's ok... it's done in the spirit of creativity and as fuel for my fire. Thank you.

Retarded Behaviour: Kushinbo

2009-04-19T01:27:00.002+08:00

First of all, apologies for the non-blogging, work has been a very rewarding and cool learning process... also busy process might I add.

So today, I was having a buffet at Kushinbo (Great World City) when the following incident happened.

An auntie was standing beside the soft drink dispenser I was queuing up for... in front of her, is the ice cream machine. She just stood there, not doing anything. Seeing that, a staff member went forth and helped her out. She then shouted in a real moronic way "NO NO I WANT GREEN TEA", which made the staff member push some ice cream down on her cup. The lady then went "NOOOOO, THE REAL GREEN TEA."

I stood there stunned. 40/50+ years of life and you can't distinguish between an ice cream machine and a coffee/tea dispenser?

EPIC FAIL.

A new dawn

2009-03-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

Dream job starts later, here's praying I don't fuck it up.

Fond Video Game Memory: Spider-man in 3D for the 1st time ever on the PS1!

2009-03-23T01:23:00.001+08:00

Oooh, are we gonna surf the web?

Frustrated Incorporated.

2009-03-12T01:50:00.002+08:00

They say misery loves company
We could start a company
And make misery, Frustrated Incorporated
I know just what you need
I might just have the thing
I know what you'd pay to see

Put me out of my misery
I'd do it for you, Would you do it for me?
We will always be busy, making misery

We could build a factory, and make misery
We'll create the cure, we made the disease
Frustrated Incorporated, Frustrated Incorporated

I know just what you need
I might just have the thing
I know what you'd pay to feel

Put me out of my misery
Suicide kings and drama queens
Forever after happily making misery

Did you satisfy your greed, get what you need
Was it only envy, so empty

Frustrated incorporated...

I'd do it for you, would you do it for me?

Yet another Jordan classic

2009-03-09T02:16:00.001+08:00

To: lord_jden@hotmail.com
Start Time: 7:49:59 PM; End Time: 8:19:52 PM

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:50:06 PM)

lol the wolverine movie is going to suck

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:50:16 PM)

they apparently made him and sabretooth brothers

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:50:35 PM)

not too far off from our prediction of them being a gay couple

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (7:50:43 PM)

hahaha

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:50:53 PM)

incest gay bondage

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:50:55 PM)

awesome

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (7:51:10 PM)

wolverine already has pointy things :)

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:51:25 PM)

sabretooth better

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (7:51:27 PM)

long and hard

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:51:31 PM)

even mouth also have

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:51:43 PM)

he can blowjob himself

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (7:51:46 PM)

but very short

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:51:57 PM)

that's not the point

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (7:52:05 PM)

longer the better

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:52:06 PM)

the vagina can only accomodate 607 inches

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:52:09 PM)

6-7

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:52:16 PM)

even if you have a 80 inch cock

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:52:26 PM)

that means 74 inches of it is useless

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:52:40 PM)

it's the width my friend

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:52:42 PM)

not length

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (7:58:52 PM)

finally found it

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (7:59:03 PM)

supports my argument

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (7:59:16 PM)

what

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (7:59:28 PM)

listen

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (7:59:37 PM)

that size matters

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (8:00:05 PM)

you know that all this chat log is doing is making you look and sound like the virgin you are

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (8:00:06 PM)

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (8:00:46 PM)

haven't found someone who met my standards yet

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Gimme shelter. says: (8:01:21 PM)

right...

Again

2009-03-03T04:19:00.000+08:00

HARNESS THE POWER OF 400 BABIES

2009-03-01T07:45:00.001+08:00

Yesterday

2009-02-28T05:37:00.003+08:00

Suddenly
I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me

Epic lulz. To his credit I thought Chester sang quite well, but seriously count how many times Jay Z says "That's right." Lololol. Epic stuff.

So now, back to finding my smile...

And I thought I had it bad...

2009-02-24T04:10:00.003+08:00

My new favourite site: http://www.fmylife.com/

Some choice quotes...

Today, I was at my ex-girlfriends house, whom I still have a major crush on. After cuddling as we watched a movie, she began to show me several pictures she had taken on her cell, and asked which ones I liked the best. She then sent the pictures I had chosen, to a guy she had met a week ago. FML

Today, I accidently walked in on my girlfriend masturbating so I said to her "Need a hand with that?", to which she replied "I'm doing fine here on my own, don't ruin it". FML

Today, I arrived at my parents house for dinner. When I got there, I noticed that they had gay pride flags hanging from the porch, and gay rights bumper stickers plastered to their cars. There was also a huge "We accept you, Nick" banner hanging from the garage. I'M NOT GAY! FML

Today, I saw my mom sneaking meat into her spaghetti sauce. She proceeded to tell me she sneaks meat into most of the food she cooks. I've been a vegetarian for 8 years. FML

Today, I went to the store to buy some condoms for my girlfriend, Kim and I. I was in a rush and when I looked at the cashier realized it was her father. Nervous and hoping to reassure him, I go "don't worry, I'm not using these with Kim." That didn't help. FML

Today, I kissed my girlfriend and she tasted like a cigarette. I don't smoke. She doesn't smoke. My roommate does. FML

Today, I went round to my Grandparents to help set up their new Satellite T.V. When I turned it on, it for some reason defaulted to "Arab Babes TV". I was therefore inadvertently responsible for the broadcast of Porn in my Grandparents living room. FML

Today, at my softball game, there was one spot left for center field. The coach had to choose between me or the girl who forgot her glasses and was blind without them. He chose her. FML

Today, I found out my angry ex girlfriend put Nair in my shampoo before moving out of my dorm. I'm now balding at 19. FML

Today, my mom walked in on me looking at a 1978 playboy. She asked if I found it in the basement. I said yes. Then I realized she was the centerfold. FML

Today, my girlfriend told me she wanted me to be her first and last...with plenty of people in between. FML

Today, I took my dog for a walk down by the river. I was throwing sticks for him with one hand and talking on the phone with the other. Then I accidentally threw my phone in the river instead of the stick and was standing there talking to the stick while my phone sat at the bottom of the river. FML

GOOD LORD. HAHAHAHAA

Conan o Conan

2009-02-23T01:08:00.003+08:00

Conan O Brien is my favourite talk show host. (Letterman comes close.)

He has just left the Late Night show to take over the Tonight Show. Here's a short trip down memory lane.

Got To Get You Into My Life

2009-02-20T06:26:00.003+08:00

Love the horns in this version.

I've been in the mood for horny music lately. As in with horns. Although most of the music I listen to is pretty damn horny actually.

Estranged

2009-02-15T19:30:00.002+08:00

When you're talkin to yourself
And nobody's home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone
(Alone)

So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to you baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see
ONE, TWO

Old at heart but I'm only 28
And I'm much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it's getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart

I don't know how you're s'posed
To find me lately
An what more could tou ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me

Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn't hesitate
If I'm to find my own way out

Still talkin' to myself
and nobody's home
(Alone)

So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see

When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
An now that you've been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You're back down on the ground
And you don't talk so loud
An you don't walk so proud
Any more, and what for

Well I jumped into the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn't show give it time
To read between the lines
'Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything We've ever known's here
Why must it drift away and die

I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it thru, this time- Oh this time
Without you

I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die

Crushes = Idols

2009-02-14T05:47:00.002+08:00

Idols are easily the people that I least want to meet in life. "Why?" you say.

Easy question, I'm terrified of the fact that they might be assholes. They might not live up to the image of what I want them to be.

Crushes are the same too. I think it's a blessing in disguise that people get rejected from their crushes now. Very often, your crushes aren't who you think they are. True love is probably around the corner, just not here. It's probably somewhere else.

I'm not sad, don't fuckin' worry.

Gimme a break.

2009-02-13T06:05:00.003+08:00

As IBP drags on and on, I have found myself becoming what I never wanted.

Shouting at people.
My mom. My dad. Everyone basically. No one is spared.
Things I thought I wanted, aren't so precious anymore.
General bitter behaviour.

Dear God, what have I become?

It's alright

2009-02-11T14:50:00.002+08:00

Told you once about your friends and neighbors
They were always seeking but they'll never find it
It's alright, It's alright
Where to go and where to see
It's always been that way and it can never be
It's alright, It's alright
Give it all and ask for no return
And very soon you'll see and you'll begin to learn
That's it's alright, It's alright

Don't you know that it's so good for you
You can be making love and see it all go through
But it's alright, It's alright

Told you once about your friends and neighbors
They were always seeking but they'll never find it
It's alright, It's alright

Courtesy Of My Friend Lam

2009-02-06T18:25:00.001+08:00

Badasssery.

Back, Back In The Ownage Groove

2009-02-06T02:52:00.003+08:00

Let's get back into the blogging with some less personal. Too much stuff has happened in my personal life to be summed up in one entry so I'm probably not even gonna bother. I'm much happier though.

I have a friend named Jordan and he just got owned.

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:42:19 AM)

the normal rb2 drumset also got cymbals

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:42:26 AM)

http://www.amazon.com/Rock-Triple-Cymbal-Expansion-Xbox-360/dp/B001G57Y02

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:42:31 AM)

I'd rather look at that

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:42:43 AM)

the ION no point unless you really fucking solid drummer

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:45:36 AM)

I tempted to get the RB2 kit when it comes out and buy that

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:45:38 AM)

mmmmm

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (2:45:47 AM)

and when is that?

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (2:45:57 AM)

feb already and no sign of rb2 in sg

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:46:30 AM)

how the fuck i know

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:46:35 AM)

you make it sound like im EA

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:46:37 AM)

fucking cockster

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:47:16 AM)

If I'm EA I immediately ban you from all servers

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (2:47:47 AM)

however EA servers aren't that great

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:47:54 AM)

erm they are

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:47:59 AM)

you obviously haven't played fifa

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:48:05 AM)

22 connected playing football

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:48:06 AM)

n00b

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (2:48:34 AM)

play wow, over 1,000 in one city

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:48:43 AM)

go and play wow lor

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:48:44 AM)

loser game

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:48:45 AM)

LOL

Leopards can't change their spots. But with black ink they can be panthers! says: (2:49:01 AM)

WoW has enough people to makes it own country

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:49:29 AM)

Wow I'm so scared because almost everyone of them does not have a functioning brain

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:49:37 AM)

WOW COUNTRIES RAID MEEEEEE

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Oh baby you're the only thing in this world, that's pure and good and right. :) says: (2:49:44 AM)

omgwtfbbqMESCARED

Jordan, you're what I would call a n00bcake. If a WOW country comes and attack me I wouldn't even move a flinch. Especially if they all do this...

Just kiddin, dude, love ya.

Protect Your V

2009-01-16T01:25:00.000+08:00

Ferrero Rocheo will never be the same again

2009-01-13T03:54:00.001+08:00

BOATS AND HOES!

FUUUUUUUUUUCK YEAH

2009-01-09T03:43:00.001+08:00

You want bold?
You want different?

GUESS WHAT

YOU FUCKIN GOT IT

You know what would be really nice right now...

2008-12-29T02:13:00.001+08:00

Jelly beans.

And a SHITLOAD of Coca Cola. None of that weaksauce pepsi shit, nothankyou.jpg

Double whammy!

2008-12-19T02:42:00.002+08:00

Laptop charger? Fried.

Sennheiser cans. Fried.

DOUBLE WHAMMAYYYYY!!!!

IM BACK IN THE SADDLE AGAINNNNNNN

2008-12-09T02:40:00.002+08:00

Yeah I know it's been more than a month. Gimme a break dammit.
And I don't have to tell you everything man.

I know damn well.
But that doesn't mean I should do anything about it.
Busy busy schedule has cleared, and I finally had the whole weekend to enjoy myself.
To those who gave me their well wishes for my birthday, thanks.
Being able to get away from some people and spend it with you guys is the best respite from everything else. Good times, oh good times.

And I present the song most well suited to describe my mood now... a good old GNR classic, since I've been listening to Chinese Democracy a lot.

Make You Crazy

2008-10-24T01:10:00.000+08:00

WELL HELLO THAR MANDY

Being a slacker film connosieur in Singapore is hard.

2008-10-23T01:19:00.003+08:00

So, a few weeks ago. I saw on yahoo movies Singapore that Pineapple Express was gonna be out on the 16th.
When the day came though, the listing mysteriously disappeared. Now Yahoo Movies Singapore has a listing for Zack And Miri Make A Porno on 27th November.
Elizabeth Banks... hmmm tasty. Don't fuck me over again, Yahoo Movies.

EDIT: Put up the trailers...

A poem of sheer geekiness it pierces through your heart and leaves you unable to resist

2008-10-09T01:14:00.000+08:00

Square Root of Three
by Dave Feinberg (as cited by Kumar in Harold & Kumar 2)

I fear that I will always be
A lonely number like root 3

The three is all that’s good and right
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick
With just some quick arithmetic

I know I'll never see the Sun,
As 1.7321
Such as my reality,
A sad irrationality.

When hark! What is this I see?
Another square root of three.

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number that we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer.

We break free from our mortal bonds
And With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

Anne Hathaway likes it in the winston

2008-09-26T05:10:00.001+08:00

Well, apparently...

“In an upcoming interview with Esquire the sexy Get Smart star states that one of the most sensual experiences in her life was anal intercourse with her boyfriend. She says “every woman should try it, otherwise they miss out on something amazing”. She also speaks about significance of the first time and the trustworthy partner and how the anal penetration makes her feel feminine in a very special way.”

lolwut

Not that I've had anal sex, but damn this woman just moved a couple of notches up my list.

Tropic Thunder Promo

2008-09-15T20:12:00.002+08:00

LAWL

Say fire truck!

2008-09-08T10:40:00.001+08:00

This made my day, and it's only just 10:40AM. Although I woke up at 12 midnight...

I have a dream

2008-08-29T08:07:00.001+08:00

Martin Luther King

Don't ya think there's a place for us in between the sheets?

2008-08-25T05:11:00.001+08:00

LIVE WITH ME
(M. Jagger/K. Richards)

I got nasty habits, I take tea at three
Yes, and the meat I eat for dinner
Must be hung up for a week
My best friend, he shoots water rats
And feeds them to his geese
Don'cha think there's a place for you
In between the sheets?

Come on now, honey
We can build a home for three
Come on now, honey
Don't you wanna live with me?

And there's a score of harebrained children
They're all locked in the nursery
They got earphone heads they got dirty necks
They're so 20th century
Well they queue up for the bathroom
'Round about 7:35
Don'cha think we need a woman's touch to make it come alive?

You'd look good pram pushing
Down the high street
Come on now, honey
Don't you wanna live with me?

Whoa, the servants they're so helpful, dear
The cook she is a whore
Yes, the butler has a place for her
Behind the pantry door
The maid, she's French, she's got no sense
She's wild for Crazy Horse
And when she strips, the chauffeur flips
The footman's eyes get crossed

Don'cha think there's a place for us
Right across the street
Don'cha think there's a place for you,
In between the sheets?

Tonight I'm gonna party like it's 1999

2008-08-23T07:58:00.001+08:00

Prince - 1999

Alas, it was not to be. Fuck.

Dancing with myself

2008-08-21T06:14:00.001+08:00

Well, that's what I've been doing for the past hour. What dance, you ask? The robo, of course. That's my specialty.

And Billy Idol kicks ass. This post just killed two birds with one stone.

Gee I'm hungry

2008-08-21T04:59:00.002+08:00

I come to you, live from the surround room at 5:04AM. I really should be doing my audio but JJ is asleep, so blasting sound effects and what not isn't really a smart idea.

So, now you're thinking... you should be sleeping, Dexian...
Well yeah I WOULD LOVE TO! But I have to be at Suntec City at 9 FUCKING 15 AM to shoot the god damn Singapore International Jewelry Festival opening ceremony.
Yeah, so I'm not sleeping... for fear my recent habits of oversleeping take over.

Anddddd, I have to be in school from 12-6 to edit even more. Yup, long day ahead... pray for me. Sincerely.

P.S, in other days... the Xbox 360 has completely sold out in Japan! Hell has frozen over!

THE FIRST EVER "Idiot Spotting Exercise"

2008-08-18T00:35:00.002+08:00

So as I was on the MRT, I thought to myself. Man, there are so many idiots in this world, I'm pretty sure I see at least one everyday... I could probably keep a fucking log of all of them. So... I figured why not?

Let's get the ball rolling...

Location: McDonald's Jurong East Shopping Center
Time: 11:30PM or later

You can identify a group of retards when they stand infront of the counter and argue loudly over the price of a 20 piece nuggets box when they can look or ask for the price. They proceed to loudly scream obscene words and embarrassing themselves in the process.

Very smart indeed.

You will be missed

2008-08-10T03:11:00.001+08:00

CHICAGO - Bernie Mac, the actor and comedian who teamed up in the casino heist caper "Ocean's Eleven" and gained a prestigious Peabody Award for his sitcom "The Bernie Mac Show," died Saturday at age 50.

"Actor/comedian Bernie Mac passed away this morning from complications due to pneumonia in a Chicago area hospital," his publicist, Danica Smith, said in a statement from Los Angeles.

The comedian suffered from sarcoidosis, an inflammatory lung disease that produces tiny lumps of cells in the body's organs, but had said the condition went into remission in 2005. He recently was hospitalized and treated for pneumonia, which his publicist said was not related to the disease.

I haven't ate yet

2008-07-21T14:15:00.000+08:00

I am sitting in class
To my right there is a bun
Man, I really wish for a char siew bun
Or a kou rou bao
How about dao sar bao
Or lian yong bao
Or bao qing tian